I've never played any of the Tactics games, so I don't feel offended (if that's why you were apologizing). That being said, I haven't play many of the FF games period.

@Tidus: No, you're in the pre-teen years, so you're past the tantrums (or, at least, you should be), but I mean that you swear alot, which to me seems unusual for your age. Was never denying your sense of humor, though. :P The character is one of my from a fanfic that I was writing during my early days here. It's on my user page if you wish to dare looking at its horribleness. I can't draw very well either, so I asked one of the "glory day users" (a term that I just thought of and henceforth will be used be me to refer to users around during the six-month period after I joined), NeloAngelo. He's a really great artist who refuses to reveal her gender, but you shouldn't let her confuse you, because he really is good.

Then people I knew started leaving. Oavatos came (or technically "went") first, and around that time I learned that I didn't have to have an account to use the IRC (which is why I never used it before then). Things went south from there real fast, as I was the cause of hate and irritation for several users, including Drake. What hit me hard is that the first time I talked to some users, like Griffin or Ark (AKA KujaFFIX), they were cool and it seemed like we'd be friends, but, with the case of Griffin as an example, the very next day when I tried to talk to him, he seemed to be very irritated and annoyed by me, and to this day I have no idea why (Ark is a snarky person in general, so I don't take it personally when he says something about me, but still). Then there were others who I managed to draw the ire of through thoughtless actions or ill-said words, which included Faethin, DSS (AKA DeadlySlashSword), and Zero. And, regardless of standing, most of the users seemed to grow tired with me, and stopped saying hi when I came on, or didn't speak to me anymore (Silver is a good example of this, because he became very apathetic towards me in the times leading up to when I no longer saw him online.)

@Tidus: Ark is cool, but it's easy (for me anyway) to misunderstand his snark as hostile intent, so if he snarks my way, I know that it's just that, and nothing more. It's not necessarily about hate so much as it was me being immature, and a lot of the things I did irritated a lot of people. Some I understand, some I regret, and some I still don't know, but all-around it's kinda cooled off as of late. I guess mostly because I've actually grown up, and I haven't been on lately.

@Tidus: It's okay. I haven't been on since I last replied, so I wouldn't have noticed anyways. I can't tell whether you understood what I said or not, because, from my perspective, the second paragraph can go either way. And as for my writing, just have a look at my user page. They're all heavily outdated, but all the stories I've written and uploaded to the FFWiki are linked to there in a specific section.

@Tidus: Oh, I misunderstood what you meant in your reply. Sorry, my bad. It's cool, judge away. :P

And sorry about "Untitled". It was really the first fan-fic I posted to the wiki, and I know that the formatting is bad, but I've acknowledged to myself that the story itself was equally so, so I don't really think I'll be doing much with it at all.

@Sid: I know, but I can't help that it gets to me. It's not about the internet people - them I can deal with - but the fact that my family has become sort-of apathetic to my writing. Not that they don't support it - far from it, actually, as several family members write as well - but they either say they will read it and then don't, shrug me off noncommitingly, or flat-out tell me they don't want to read it. It hurts me a lot because they are the ones I go to first whenever I have something new to show off, and because next to myself, I see their opinions as the most valuable. As a result I don't ask for opinions, and I rarely if ever tell them that I'm working on a new story, or that I have the newest chapter for one I'm already writing finished in its rough-/first-draft state.

As for my stories, I have thirty-something stories I've started throughout the years somewhere on the computer, but my problem is that I'm probably planning out almost every detail of any given story maybe a week before I even start writing it. As a consequence, when I being writing, I haven't taken into account the little things that tie the plot points together, and with my "limited" experience, I get writer's block alot because I can't figure out how to move the story onward to get to that next major plot point/event, and I've been thinking about it so long that I refuse to let it go just to advance the story. So, I eventually get to the point where the writer's block forces me into a corner, with no way, from my limited perspective, to get out. And then, since I'm not writing, I just gradually lose interest in writing it, though most of my stories are in my mind still, as I refuse to let them go even if I can't write them down at this time.

Then there are stories like The Flashlight, where I restart from the beginning everytime I get into that corner, but mostly because I continue thinking about the story and I go back and update it with newly-thought-of events and foreshadowings, but, with TF, I eventually came to the realization that I was just writing and rewriting basically the same thing each time (I probably redid TF maybe ten-fifteen times?), and I had to let go of it in writing form (it is still vividly in my mind) and accept that, at this point, it was never going to be written if I kept obsessing over it like I was. So I moved on, and eventually came up with what I believe is my best story idea in the history of all the stories I've written, but I've been so busy lately that I haven't done anything with it for awhile. But it is what it is.

@Pocky: I think he became mine as well.

@Kelt: Oh, trust me, I went through the "everybody" phase. That is also another reason why some are apathetic, and this one's my fault: I keep asking them to read it. Back when Final Fantasy XIII came out, I repeatedly asked my older brother to get it, but he refused because I kept asking and asking him about it. He only got it after I stopped asking for it. In the same vein/vain (I'm not sure which is the actual word used; I should know these things! :P), for a time I repeatedly asked a different older brother to read the TF back when I first started it, and he got really annoyed by me because I would ask him almost every day, sometimes twice a day. So now he won't read my stories, despite encouraging me to write. It's a shame, because I realize where I went wrong, but now it may be too late to fix the situation.

@Fae: I'm sorry, I really am. I asked you, and I wasn't mature enough to accept the results. Sadly, one of my unfortunate flaws is that I can't handle being "wrong", inasmuch as my mind sees someone critisizing me or my storys as not understanding. So I rush to defend myself by explaning everything and/or providing an excuse to justify why something is the way it is (as an addendum: if you notice, I'm doing exactly that ith this entire paragraph). It's something I really hate, but when it happens I can't stop myself. And if the person refutes the excuse, I move on to something else, in an attempt to have the last word and get the other person to admit that they're "wrong", whether they are or not.

Kelt is the only person who's ever "broken" me. If you go and look in my second archive, there is a conversation between the two of us, and it really helped at the time. Look at every post of mine and see how many times I said such-and-such was the problem, and how I changed it to something different each time. But she wouldn't have any of it, and with each post she tore down another wall, until she had me in tears reading her responses because I couldn't win. And then there were no more excuses, nothing I could use to justify me being "right". So I had to concede and realize I was wrong, and it made me feel good in the end, because I realized that nobody ever had the patience (or whatever) before to wade through the excuses, and that Kelt cared about me enough to do so was something that helped me mature in some areas.

But I really am sorry that I put you through that Fae. I'm a hypocrite whether I want to be or not, because I want the critsism, but I'm not willing to take it when it's given to me. And, unfortunately, it's something that seems to be ingrained, so it's going to be very hard to rid myself of, and most likely I will end up putting others through that in the future.

Well, I was talking with Tidus, and then I went into my FFWiki life-story, and that diverged into a discussion of my faults, which prompted several users to post their thoughts, which in turn led to my case-in-point WOT, which led to you asking what happened, which led to me explaining it.